Monday, September 20, 2010

Why do I still serve you ?

Came across this article on TimesOfIndia through a friend.......article had a poem written by an Indian soldier.........just wanted to share that poem....for the full article go to


http://blogs.timesofindia.indiatimes.com/indus-calling/entry/whose-man-is-that-soldier-fighting-in-kashmir


Such articles make you think how screwed by Indian Politics/Media is......we may think (which I do not deny) that India is shining.......but we are still missing some areas which need to changed fundamentally....from the roots.....


Here is the poem....


Why do I still serve you?


How you play with us, did you ever see?
At Seven, I had decided what I wanted to be;
I would serve you to the end,
All these boundaries I would defend.


Now you make me look like a fool,
When at seventeen and just out of school;
Went to the place where they made "men out of boys"
Lived a tough life …sacrificed a few joys…


In those days, I would see my "civilian" friends,
Living a life with the fashion trends;
Enjoying their so called "college days"
While I sweated and bled in the sun and haze…
But I never thought twice about what where or why
All I knew was when the time came, I'd be ready to do or die.


At 21 and with my commission in hand,
Under the glory of the parade and the band,
I took the oath to protect you over land, air or sea,
And make the supreme sacrifice when the need came to be.


I stood there with a sense of recognition,
But on that day I never had the premonition,
that when the time came to give me my due,
You'd just say, "What is so great that you do?"


Long back you promised a well-to-do life;
And when I'm away, take care of my wife.
You came and saw the hardships I live through,
And I saw you make a note or two,
And I hoped you would realise the worth of me;
but now I know you'll never be able to see,
Because you only see the glorified life of mine,
Did you see the place where death looms all the time?
Did you meet the man standing guard in the snow?
The name of his newborn he does not know...
Did you meet the man whose father breathed his last?
While the sailor patrolled our seas so vast?


You still know I'll not be the one to raise my voice
I will stand tall and protect you in Punjab Himachal and Thois.


But that's just me you have in the sun and rain,
For now at twenty-four, you make me think again;
About the decision I made, seven years back;
Should I have chosen another life, some other track?


Will I tell my son to follow my lead?
Will I tell my son, you'll get all that you need?
This is the country you will serve
This country will give you all that you deserve?


I heard you tell the world "India is shining"
I told my men, that's a reason for us to be smiling
This is the India you and I will defend!
But tell me how long will you be able to pretend?
You go on promise all that you may,
But it's the souls of your own men you betray.


Did you read how some of our eminent citizens
Write about me and ridicule my very existence?
I ask you to please come and see what I do,
Come and have a look at what I go through
Live my life just for a day
Maybe you'll have something else to say?


I will still risk my life without a sigh
To keep your flag flying high
but today I ask myself a question or two…
Oh India…. Why do I still serve you?

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Dil to bachcha hai ji......a masterpiece

Generally I have seen only A R Rehman songs grow on me...as in the song keeps getting better and better for me on repeated listenings......but this time its a non-Rehman song...and the height is that this song has grown so much on me that I am literally addicted to it.....I dont know if this statement will stand the test of time or not.....but right now I am tempted to say....or confess rather......Dil To Bachcha Hai Ji from Ishquia is the most hummable and magical song I have listened to in past few years......

Because I have nothing better to do, I watched the movie yesterday (please spare urself and watch it online at max)...and I have been listening to this song now for past 3 days continously.....I am going to pen down my understanding of the lyrics....


Aisi uljhi nazar unse hatt ti nahi
Daant se reshmi dor katt ti nahi
Umr kab ki baras ke safaid ho gayi
Kaari badri jawani ki chhatt ti nahi
Wallah ye dhadkan bhadne lagi hai
Chehre ki rangat udne lagi hai
Darr lagta hai tanha sone mein ji
Dil to bachcha hai ji
Dil to bachcha hai ji
Thoda kaccha hai ji
Haan dil to baccha hai ji

basically its about an old guy (Naseerudin Shah in the movie) who falls for a girl (Vidya Balan)....so he says

I am so mesmerized by her that I am not able to forget her

I am so old that I cant even cut a silk thread with my teeth...

it was long ago that I was young.....now I am an old guy (safaid ho gayi...means my hairs have grown white)

but still the youth inside me has not died (this line awesomely captures the feelings....he compares the youthness inside with the black clouds of rain...which are full of water and ready to pour down)

my heart beat is up (because of old age)

the shine of my face is also fading

I am afraid to sleep alone (now I think this line is a masterpiece....its serves a dual purpose.....both old age people and children are afraid of sleeping alone....both for different reasons....so this line connects with the ongoing problems of old age...as well as connects beautifully with next lines)

even though I am old but my heart is still a child...what can I do about this child

Kisko pata tha pehlu mein rakha
Dil aisa paaji bhi hoga
Hum to hamesha samajhte the koi
Hum jaisa haaji hi hoga
Hai zor kare, kitna shor kare
Bewajah baaton pe aienwei gaur kare
Dil sa koi kameena nahi
Koi to roke, koi to toke
Iss umr mein ab khaoge dhokhe
Darr lagta hai ishq karne mein ji
Dil to bachcha hai ji…

who knew that heart...which is so close (pehlu) to me....would be so mischievious (paaji)...

I always thought that it will be as pure (haaji in muslims means someone who has made pilgrimage to Mecca) as myself

I am trying to forget her...but it is not listening to me....and forcing me (by making constant noises) to remember her

it remembers even the smallest/casual talks with her (how simply Gulzar saab has put such delicate idea into words)

heart is the biggest scoundrel.....

someone please make it understand/stop it

now in this age it will make me fall in a trap (there can be 2 viewpoints here: 1. guy is old....girl is young....so its hard to imagine that feelings of love shown by girl for the guy will be real..so he is a bit cautious 2.since he is old....he knows that very often love can be a trap/just a passing moment....not something which can result in a long lasting relationship)

Guy is old...and mature but still he sees himself falling for a young girl.....he realizes that its only his heart which is asking him to fall.....so he says that I am afraid to fall in love...although I am old, my heart is still a child...it is not mature and I cant believe it

Aisi udaasi baithi hai dil pe
Hassne se ghabra rahe hain
Saari jawani katra ke kaati
Piri mein takra rahe hain
Dil dhadakta hai to aise lagta hai woh
Aa raha hai yahin dekhta hi na ho
Prem ki maare kataar re
Tauba ye lamhe katt te nahi kyun
Aankhon se meri hatt te nahi kyun
Darr lagta hai tughse kehne mein ji
Dil toh bachcha hai ji…

I like this stanza the best.....how well Gulzar saab captures the restlessness/hopeless situation of an old guy whose life has been without much colors of love/relationships....and now in this age he meets a young girl who he wants to fall for.....

the guy has had a very sad/colorless life....that sadness has sunk in so deeply that even now when he got feeling of love for the girl...he feels real happiness inside...he is afraid of smiling

whole youth I spent neglecting girls/love etc....and now in old age I am feeling what I should have felt then....

When my heart beats.....I feel like she is very close to me....hidden somewhere...she is looking at me..

She is cutting my heart with her knife of love...

Oh God...why dont these moments pass....

why am I not able to remove her from my eyes/mind/heart

I am afraid of telling you my feelings......

my heart is a child....


Apart from these awesome lyrics....I think music is too good...and has been sung awesomely well by Rahat Fateh Ali Khan...his rendering is just superb.....well it is only when we all three elements music/lyrics/voice gel so well that we get such awesome songs....

Friday, January 22, 2010

kuch khyaal.....dil se......

In an effort to break out of daily routine and get some satisfaction....and find out myself :)


मुद्दत हो गयी तेरा चेहरा देखे
अब तो चाँद भी फीका लगने लगा है

चाँद से मिला था कल रात
बेचारा बहुत उदास था
तेरे शहर में उसे कोई पूछता ही नहीं

सुबह-सुबह इक लम्हे ने दस्तक दी थी
तुघे साथ लाया था
हम बैठे, बातें की, तुम्हारे किस्से सुनाये
मैंने उसे रुकने को कहा, पर उसे जाना था कहीं
लेकिन वापिस मिलने का वादा किया उसने
में लम्हा लम्हा जी रहा हूँ उस लम्हे के इंतज़ार में

में और तू ऐसे हैं जैसे रेल की दो पटरियां
कहने को बहुत पास पास, पर आगे देखो तो क्षितिज तक नहीं मिलते
पर मेरा दिल कहता है, की इन पटरियों का कोई तो छोर होगा
वहां तुम उतरोगी, में उतरूंगा, और रब ने चाह तो कुछ रास्ता साथ साथ तय करेंगे

कुछ पल कुछ लम्हे सदियों से लम्बे होते हैं
तेरे साथ बीताये उन लम्हों की पोटली बना ली है मैंने
एक एक लम्हे को हज़ार बार जीता है ये दिल दीवाना

will continue to write more and hopefully better :)

Friday, April 25, 2008

Suraj Ka Satvan Ghoda - storytelling at its best !!!

As promised in the last post, here is the review of movie which i think is the BEST STORYTELLING EVER on celluloid.

Directed by Shyam Benegal, it was released in 1993 and won the National Award for Best Feature in Hindi. As most of the Benegal's movies this one too has female character dominance and the plot is actually a correlation of the lives of 3 different women (belonging to poor, middle and intellectual class of society) and this correlation is narrated through a male character, Manek Mullah, superbly played by Rajit Kapoor (remember Byomkeshbakshi :) ).

The movie is based on a novel of same name by "Dharamvir Bharti". If by chance you have read his other novel "Gunaahon Ka Devta" (thanks to choli, i have read it) you will know how beautifully he can capture everything that is good and bad about humans, in a single plot.

The movie is divided into three narrations done by Manek Mullah to his friends, each telling the story of a different woman whom Manek had known in past. The timeframe for all the stories is almost same, even then, in each story viewer gets to see a different aspect of society and Manek's life. Women characters have been played by Neena Gupta (the poor), Pallavi Joshi (the intellectual) and Rajeshwari Sachdev (middle class). Movie also stars Amrish Puri delivering a top notch performance.


It is only Benegal's brilliance that such complex characterisation has been given shape on celluloid in a seemingly simple way. Characters don't tell you to form any notion about them, but still in each story you make some notion just to find out in the next story that there was something missing in your interpretation. All three story unfolds, and you are still not sure whether you have fathomed even one character fully. And then comes the best part, the ending. End scene will leave you spellbounded, in awe of the sheer brilliance of Benegal's direction. This scene makes it one of those movies which haunt you for days. It may (it may not :)) also help you in drawing a conclusion out of the movie. in my case at least, it did. Here is my one line conclusion, lemme know what was yours.

"Society and Conditions are more important than man's aspirations"

BTW this was Rajit Kapoor's first movie. I rellay appreciate Benegal Sir for giving us so many wonderful actors : Shabana Azmi, Om Puri, Girish Kanad, Naseerudin Shah, Smita Patil and many more.

If you really love cinema, DO WATCH this movie. I assure you, it won't disappoint.